I sit here in shock, in sadness and in prayer. The last few weeks, it has been my goal to start blogging again. I thought that I’d start with a post on a Monday so I could begin, again, a pattern of praising God for what He’s done. I began thinking of things that I could share-things that God has done recently but today I realized I couldn’t wait until a Monday.
Today I’m mourning the sudden death of a friend’s son. It came as such a surprise. There have been conversations about why this happened. Our church has had many surprise deaths in the last few years. What is God doing? How come He took someone so young? How will this family and the body of Christ get through this again?
There’s hope in knowing that this world is not all there is but it doesn’t make the pain go away now. It did, however, remind me that today matters. We don’t know what tomorrow will look like or whether we’ll still be here. We don’t know what God has in store for us, but we do know that He is present with us today and that He holds the future.
How will I make today matter?
I don’t always understand why things happen but I know that I have a God who cares about me and desires to be in relationship with me. I can go to Him with my fears and my questions and my anger and my shock. He’s big enough to hear all of those emotions, and He promises to never leave me. He promises to walk alongside me in the good times and the most difficult times.
These things may have surprised me but they haven’t surprised Him. I don’t understand His ways but I can look back and see how He has been faithful in other hard times.
Today I’m thankful for His presence and that I can run to Him when I don’t understand this life. I’m thankful that He invites my questions. I’m thankful that even when I don’t know how to express my feelings, He is there listening to my tears and walking beside me.
What are you questioning today? Run to Him and talk to Him about those things.